COGITO ERGO SUM
When I was 19, my younger sister died in a car accident. I felt something inside me “snap”. I remember the next year being a whirl of questions unanswered, including religious and existential questions. I remember, in my grief and anxiety, discussing with family the problem of proving that 2 plus 2 equals 4. I clearly saw through their looks; they thought I was going insane. (It was years later, studying philosophy, that I understood this math question to be a classic conundrum of philosophical science. Aha! I wasn’t crazy; I was smart!)
Soon after, I signed up for a beginning class on philosophy. But, I freaked out. I had not healed enough from grief and other personal issues that surfaced through my sister’s demise. I was not strong enough to contemplate the possibility of my non-existence. So, I dropped the class. But, before I did, during one of my anxiety attacks, I read Descartes’ and then read his classic pronouncement, “I think, therefore, I am”. How I needed to hear that; it gave me an anchor to hold onto during existential crises that followed.
After experiencing the power of philosophy during a psychologically difficult time, now, I immerse myself in existentialism and psychoanalysis for my own satisfaction; and I reap benefits of my self-analysis (limited as it can be, being so subjective). It helps me make much more sense of the world and “the other” as well! And, occasionally, I still have opportunities to help others through what I have learned.
I hope you enjoy coming with me on my continued journey through existentialism, and challenging “existing” religious, psychological, and historical fallacies.
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